My First Love with (HIM )

so man it started when i first saw him i dont knoe what about him was so amazing but it was something, we met in i think 3rd or 4th grade when he moved right behind me a few doors down in townhomes and i guess i fell in love instantly well puppy love off and on crushes trying to find what i loved about him in other guys always fantasying weirdly aboout what it would be like to be hiss and he be mine it was the elementry crushing...my brothers would clown my sister would get so annoyed because i would talk about how he looked at me or what he said to me that day for hours, i was so obsessed it actually really embarrising to think back at it but i wanted him to be my prince charming:)but i had moved on because i would here he has gurlfriends or liked someone else and so i started to loose faith in us ever happening so i had my boifriends he had his gurllfriends very rarley saw each other but even when we did a simple smile would always make me blush^.^i moved 5 years later i beleve and i had totally forgotten about him i started my life the high school life having fun and then the that day happened the day that i saw mr.barerra agean it was sometime in may or june i beleve him,his mom and sister came over and hung out renee was helping my sis with her college thing and i was finishing my essay and i come out of my room to see a tall handsom man smiling at me and when i saw that smile i got those same butterflies couldnt help but smile but i looked away trying to play it cool and i did..probally because i had been in a relashionship with someone already but toward the end of the night when he was going to leave he asked me for my number and i told him i didnt have a phone so he just gave me his and i would sneak my brothers phone and talk to him we would talk all night and even though i was with someone i only thouht of him and i was happy he would tell me how much he like me and how he use to crush on me to and the funny times when he would catch me staring or peeking ou side my window when he would ride his bike lol it was extremly embarrising but it was fun then i got caught using my bros phone wheni wasnt suppose to and couldnt talk only on facebook then the party came that we were throwing for my sis graduation and him and his family were comming but so was my boifrend but i didnt care i was ganna just dance and man did that night totally through me off cuzz not onlyy was erik georgious and have a great personality he could DANCE..i ended up braking up with my boifriend and me and erik started talking about getting together and i was kinda like i want to with you but i didnt want him to seem like a reboud so we waited a lil and i think about a month later we got together he came over and asked my dad and wow was that A night but anyways my dad said yes a the first month was great i was just so happy always, my dream was starting to come true we hung out talked all the time it was all great then it started changing everything was just falling apart things became good then bad then good then bad he got the wrong thought and i had wrong thought we both didnt trust each other and on august 22 my life as we knoe it ended i got a TXT saying can we talk i kinda was like uhhoh and it wasnt good but then he made it seem good then it seemed bad agean and stayed bad and it ended with a "brake" brake are for married people but i didnt want to let go it hurt..it was the first time i cryed over a guy for days i couldnt flurt i couldnt even really smile it was a heart brake i didnt want to beleve..but then things changed when he went on his trip for the navy recurting thing ggurls would post on his wall and it bugged me but what started to think of when we were together he wouldnt stop talking to ex for me hed be a dick sometimes he really didnt make that effort to talk to me and thats wheni realized there were my sighns i shouldve known..and nnow i seee that he cheated on his ex and im like wow never thought he would be that type of person but guys change and i will never put my hear into a guy like i did with him and for the first time im officially OVER! him!.